Ok, this week has been sooooo long. I miss Arkansas like none other...I can't exactly explain it why I miss it so much. I learned a lot there-more than I expected to. Not only that, but I miss all the family. It's like part of me is missing now. They accepted me so quickly and I felt like I belonged there in the chaos. I really fit in the big family setting. I made some friends that I really wish I could see again and I don't know if I'll ever see them again. I pray that I will and that we'll stay close, but I can't exactly say that I know it will happen. I don't know why I'm in such a funk, it's just a bummer that Thanksgiving went by so quickly. But things will be ok-after all, everthing will be ok in the end, if it's not ok, then it's not the end! :0)

On to other things, I had two concerts this week! Wednesday's was my favorite by far. It was at school and I was in orchestra and in concert choir. I happened to have a solo for concert choir for the song "Down to the River to Pray" which is one of my all time favorite songs!!! gotta love o brother where art thou! So I, along with two other people, had to climb up a ladder to get up by the lighting booth to actually sing it. It was pretty slick getting up the night of the performance and as if that wasn't challenging enough the zipper on my dress decided to break so my dress was half unzipped-but don't worry we wore robes when we got onstage! It was awesome but I made mom cry which kinda made me feel bad but oh well that's how parents are supposed to act I guess. The other concert was for violin and i played part of my audition piece which is Bach Partida No. 3 which is actually in the movie August Rush which I think is pretty neat. It was a good time in general.

Now last time I'd just found out I didn't make Belmonnt's music program-which was a major bummer. Suprisingly though, that night was the hardest. It got better from there. I've been doing a lot of talking with God and I know that he has a reason for everything and just cause they said no doesn't mean I'm gonna give up on God's plan for me which right now I feel is music. This week I've been searching trying to figure out what he wants me to do: whether to go to Belmont and study music business, go somewhere in Texas or what! After talking to my youth minister and "grandad" (aka mike myers) It's been made clear that God wants me to be at Lipscomb-now as some of you know that was the LAST place on Earth I wanted to go. But Nashville is where I need to be and want to be, and Lipscomb will let me study music and be apart of music which is more important to me than having the label of going to Belmont. I mean after all, Amy Stroup went to Lipscomb and she's been doing just fine-not necessarily makin number ones on the charts-but she's successful. I mean what exactly does success mean? In my opinion it has NOTHING to do with fame but whether you're honoring God in all you do, staying close to Him, and sharing the word of God with other people so that they might experience the same joy and peace through Him. If I could pay rent that would be good too :0)

So things are finally coming together I think. Christmas is coming yay!!!! I love love love Christmas it's my favorite holiday ever!! Can't wait to see what I'm doing for Christmas Eve service. Last year I sang as Mary "Breath of Heaven" which was soooo cool. And after that I think me and the folks are headed to Texas to visit the fam woot. go flat west texas. well some of it is pretty and im actually pretty excited to see some people i havent seen in years!!!! well more to come later.