Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Study Break

I've already been at it for awhile, and I've actually been productive-so it was time for a break. I'm realizing more and more how uncertain life is which is kind of intimidating but at the same time I know that somehow it's all gonna be ok.
I'm honestly not in love with my major...but I need to at least stick it through this year. Over the course of this year I need to make as many connections as possible because there's no promises that I'll actually get to come back especially with how money has been. This is my chance to get into the music industry, that is if that's what God wants me to do with my life...still trying to figure that one out. I'm trying to keep my head up and eyes on God-it feels like He's really been testing me this week to see just how much I can handle...but the fact that I've got all this in front of me tells me that I can handle it otherwise God wouldn't have put it there...hope that makes sense...

I'm excited to see some of my Colorado friends this weekend it's been too long and it'll be nice to see some familiar faces!!! :D

And as my Head Resident Assistant writes in her emails to all the girls in the dorm:

"When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on in the first place"

Sunday, September 27, 2009

Blue Moon of Kentucky

Well, after a fun-filled weekend in Kentucky, it's back to's some pics of the mischief we got into...mind you it was about 3 in the morning, I was a bit out of it, and we had already devoured most of a funfetti cake.
This week is going to go by incredibly slow, but fast at the same time. In three days, my friends are coming to visit and I'm soo excited!!!! They'll get in Thursday and leave Sunday, but it's been a good month and a half since I've seen them. This week will be full of practicing and hopefully if I'm lucky I'll even get a nap in tomorrow afternoon!

Saturday, September 26, 2009

Oh and here's some pics of what's been going on-These are for you Aunt Chris :D

Me and LeAnn going to the Luke Bryan and David Nail concert!!

Friends :D

Yay for roomies!!!

Back on Track

So I realize I've been neglecting my blog...I'll do much better I promise!!

I'm sitting in the floor of my new friend Taylor's friends house. We're in Kentucky, which I think this is the second time I've ever been to Kentucky, exciting-oh yes! And the common theme everywhere I've been for the past month or so is RAIN. It's like there's a little cloud following me around. Not that I'm complaining but it certainly does NOT help the uncoordinated get to class (that would be me in case you didn't catch that). I'm tired of the bottoms of my jeans being soaked, but I have rainboots...if only they went with everything in my wardrobe...

So, what's been going on in my life...well there's this thing called college that is supposedly supposed to be life changing or something...but ya I just finished week 5 and I'm still alive this is an accomplishment to be celebrated. Nashville is awesome and I love Lipscomb, but I've come to realize that Colorado is home...I know it's a duh statement but I didn't think I'd really miss Colorado-I mean I knew I'd miss my friends and family but I didn't realize I'd DESPERATELY MISS my friends and family and the mountains and the ice cold rain rather than the lukewarm stuff that falls from the sky around here. I especially miss my church family. I knew they were amazing, I did!! But I still didn't quite realize how good I had it there. I've been going to Woodmont which is good and everything, but it's not Littleton. I miss having that connection and knowing that one step into the building and I'd be surrounded by people who would be there for me and would do anything for me because of the love they have for me through Jesus Christ. People don't get it down here-there's a Bible Belt mentality that I never really saw until now. God is in this little box that people take out on Sunday mornings and Wednesday nights and they sing the songs and close their eyes during prayers...but there's not connection. Don't get me wrong, Woodmont is the closest I've found to Littleton. I feel that they're seeking God in everything that they do and I love that!! But I will definitely be looking forward to coming home and getting to worship at Littleton and be reunited with my church family that I love more than anything.

Now, all that being said, I know that this is where I need to be at the moment...even if it's not always where I want to be. God is taking me through this journey and He's teaching me some things that I need to learn. Recently, I've really noticed how I need to "sit down and shut up" and just listen to what He has to say instead of talking away about how I want things to go and about how I can't hear Him (once again, if I'd shut up I might actually hear something). If I can just listen, I learn a lot more. I've began to notice how much I rely on other people and how scared I am of being alone. This has now become my time to draw close to God and realize that no matter what, He's the one I need to rely on and draw close to in all my times of need-though God did give me the relationships I have with people and those are to be cherished as well, when things are going really bad rather than going to my best friend to share my insecurities, fears and doubts, I need to go to Him because He's the one who's going to take care of it all. There's so many things that I want to happen, but I can't control them. This has led me to quesiton, do I belong in music? Is that truly what God wants? There are so many questions unanswered right now, but I'm learining to be ok with it because that's where I'm supposed to be right now. It's not my job to have everything figured out-it's my job to follow Jesus and his plan that He has for me.

WHEW!! K, I needed to let that out. Anywho, on a lighter note :D my friends are coming next weekend and I'm so STOKED to see them. And as for classes, they're all going pretty good so far...all my tests have been A's and I'm performing in a student recital in the next couple weeks.

Oh, and here's my countdown:
5 days till my friends come
19 days till I see my cousins
56 days till Thanksgiving
82 days till Christmas Break!!!!!!!!! :D

I'll be checking in more often-I promise!!

Sunday, September 20, 2009

My blog is a complete mess!!!!! It will hopefully be fixed soon and if I'm lucky I might even manage to get some pics up... :0)